Jilted

Yesterday, my fiance broke our engagement. He said that we were incompatible. In Georgian days, they would have said that the girl was "jilted." I read an article today that said that it is nothing to be embarrassed about. I still think it is embarrassing. I will have to send out cancellation of the wedding to everyone. Everyone. All 150 people. And I have to cancel so many other things. Undo so many things. Undo 2 years of my life, not to mention my hopes and dreams of the years to come. I just don't know what to do with myself. I think I want to move away from Madison. Get a part time job in Austin at a home infusion pharmacy. I have seen the incompatabilities for a while, but he assured me that they were not an issue. That he could handle them. He admitted when we were breaking up that he couldn't handle them. He thought he could, but he wasn't strong enough. He said today that he feels like he failed me. Well, he did fail me. He did. His decision is done. He's been thinking about it for the past 2 months, he said. I got nojury, no plea bargain, no negotiating. It's just done. He said he wanted a clean break. It's done. But so far from done. ~CSC